I am equally sensitive to inner clutter. My spirit is restless if I am disturbed about something, ill at ease about a course of action, or anxious about some relationship. I thrive on peace and harmony without discord. Unless I sense inner order I have difficulty discerning the leading of the Holy Spirit. My spirit too needs quiet waters, not roaring rapids.
ORDER MY PRIVATE WORLD
Propelled by the winds of my times
my inner world whirls with unrest
I'm driven by impulse and pressed
by the visible, the temporal
commitments and duties that pull at my spirit
responsibilities wrestle me to the ground
disintegrating my spiritual discernment
clouding my perception of God's will.
Lord! I can't hear You
if my outward world shouts so loudly
and my inner, private world is askew
without order and balance!
Not in the whirlwind of my life
nor in the earthquake of circumstances
not in the thunder of my activities
nor in the lightning flash of my urgencies
not in the fire of my passions
for accomplishment and success
can I sense God’s peace and direction.
Only when I withdraw to my secret garden
within the hidden chamber of my heart
where Christ abides and graciously beckons me
can I settle down to listen
attentively with a hushed heart
to His still, small voice.
When He knocks and I open
He comes to sup with me and I with Him
in this sacred place, in His Presence
where He nourishes me so tenderly
sorts out the disorder of my life
and blesses me with peace and focus
to face confidently the public day ahead.
1 Kings 19; Revelation 3:20
From book in progress: “LATTER RAIN
Wordsmithing verse written late in the Season”
by Leona Choy